WE LIVE AND LEARN

Five years ago, I returned back home to my family, after spending ten days in a silent retreat; It was the beginning of the biggest turning point in my life. 

Through the hours of daily meditative work, I was compelled to face myself fully, with no distractions; There was no contact with the outside world, or any communication with the other participants. 

It is done in order to enable an internal cleansing process, starting from within; I went through a whole spectrum of feelings - A lot surfaced, many realizations about myself, the people in my life and the world around me. 

As the days went by I discovered more and more through my journey of self discovery. 

I found a new awareness, a different level of consciousness, because I finally let go of my attachment to the pain I had endured. 

I was able to forgive myself and others when the true meaning of compassion became clearer to me. 

I accepted myself as I am, naked sort of speak. 

Slowly but surely, the walls came tumbling down, and I felt liberated. 

I was able to see parts of the bigger picture, that up until then, didn't exist in my perception of reality. 

Many incidences came up from the past; I remembered the insults and the shame. I recalled the stinging sensation of the pain I felt. 

I cried a lot and allowed myself the time to heal my wounded self. Slowly, I noticed I stopped looking for who I can blame for all the wrong doing. 

Fast forward to present time, 

many things have changed since, today when I get angry or hurt because I feel I had been wronged, or treated unfairly, 

I begin asking myself questions. 

I know that It is me who is responsible for how I feel; No one has this power over me. 

I know I have a choice; I can either react and insult back, or back up a minute and think, maybe what this person just said to me, has really nothing to do with me. 

The fact that someone had chosen to treat you unjustly, doesn't mean that it forces you to retaliate. We don't always know what the other person is going through. 

We should always strive to think favorably about one another and give them the benefit of the doubt. That is how we do our part in creating peace, and allowing things to flow naturally and harmoniously. 

In life we have two choices; Give in to what is happening to us externally and react to it, or be proactive and create our desired reality. 

I have shared with you a very personal piece of my life, I hope that it touched you and perhaps provided you with a deeper understanding of what life is really about. 

Love & Blessings 

Yours Estee 💟